apology

I've come to realize that this blog is kinda worthless and bland- impersonal and generic- forgettable and regrettable- so now I'm going to try to make an effort to post meaningful and personal things. i may have to limit posts to once a week or less even (i don't think anyone except maybe tanner reads this anyway)- i really don't have much to say- and usually when i do have something important to say the anger or fear or loneliness or pain that inspired it burns away too fast before i can come up with a way to express it. so bear with me...