Lately I’ve been the negative-Nancy-bitchy one at NM practice. I always get bitchier at the beginning of the year anyway, its like ‘another year of this shit?’ but I digress. Mixed signals abound- you’re playing too much, you’re not playing enough- one day its all ‘the music sounds like shit lets never play out again’ and the next its ‘don’t worry about the music lets wear robes and light candles and meditate’ for what seems like endless amounts of time in front of a live audience. I guess no one understands how fat and foolish I feel on stage normally, the idea of wearing costumes or anything gimmicky that draws attention away from the music and puts it on me is unbearable. But I don’t mean to poo poo anyones ideas, and I know I get pissy fast, especially with Tanner. The only way I feel comfortable on stage is to let the music do the talkin, not robes or bear-heads or whatever.
If it sounds like shit it sounds like shit. Remember the old NM? It was ‘just bring it’ and see what happens. Sure sometimes it didn’t work, but we weren’t setting ourselves up for disappointment by EXPECTING anything. As long as some people enjoy our stuff, or at least understand what we’re working towards, nothing else should matter.
But I’m sure these next two show are gonna be great. Brian alone has enough unmph to bring the rock on his horn. And I’m looking forward to re-regrouping for a few weeks/months and then making our triumphant return, perhaps a show at the studio? I’ll see ya all tonight,